The fact is, I am a hypocrite because this year has been the year it hit me. I dont want to get older.
I feel it already! I havent minded turning older every year but this year I am going to successfully skip over my birthday and pretend it never happened. I know its a few months away but I am already stressing.
A few things that scare me.
1- I can already tell a difference in my body. I dont have nearly the energy when I was in high school or early college. And I do not have the excuse of a having a child either. I can SEE a difference already as well.
2- WRINKLES. I love being silly with my Uncle Chuck. We recently took a picture of the 2 of us and I to my surprise...I have crows feet around my eyes!!
I have used and abused my skin and its SO SO sad. Why cant you get things through your head when you are young?
I remember my friends sister worked at a tanning salon and we would go tanning all the time! I would have to hide it from my grandma because she would always scold me about being in the sun and I thought she was just being an old ornery lady, when it turns out she was so smart.
When I lived in Hawaii I would go lay out everyday...without sunscreen!! I would get so dark, and love it, and then 2 weeks after being back in Utah it was gone. Worth it? I dont think so.
I couldnt find a picture of me at my darkest, but I found one. Its a horrible picture because its like a picture of a picture but you get the idea.
Sunspots...I got plenty.
And Im only 25! There is no way to reverse it.
Now, the first thing I do when I get to the beach or outdoors is put on 50 SPF around my eyes.
I do not want to look like this in another 10 yrs
Or this...
Its just not worth being tan for a couple weeks.
So Im going to be 26 this year. YU-UCK. To be single and 26 in Utah is like death and boy am I having fun..but really...Im pushing 30. I was having a discussion the other day with someone about kids and they asked how many I wanted and I said...4 or 5. And their response
"How old are you?"
"Ill be 26 in November"
"Thats not going to happen"
Ok. Thats ok. I dont need 5, but to not be able to do things because of your age!
Oh, and now, Ill be in a new category when I fill out the bubble sheets.
( )18-25 years of age
(X)26-100 Years of age...ugh.
But on a happy note (I really think we need one right now) I have done some amazing things in my life over the 26 years Ive been alive.
I feel really glad for the things Ive been able to do and the lessons Ive learned.
There's a quote I liked from the movie The Guardian with Ashton Kutcher & Kevin Costner, and its from the lady bartender and she says,
"Hell, I've always been old Ben. Ya' know what though, I don't mind. I mean if my muscles ache, it's because I've used 'em. It's hard for me to walk up them steps now, its 'cuz I walked up 'em every night to lay next to a man who loved me. I got a few wrinkles here and there, but I've layed under thousands of skies with sunny days. I lived and I loved, danced, sang,and sweat my way through a pretty darn good life if you ask me. Getting old ain't bad Ben. Getting old, that's earned".
Getting old is earned, Getting old is earned, Getting old is earned. Maybe if I keep repeating it It will soak in.
If not, I seriously am going to start looking for Peter Pan to take me to Neverland where I dont have to grow old.
Anyone else had a tough year to turn?
4 comments:
You and me both! Turning 26 means that I'm closer to 30 than I am 20. Ugh! Not that I want to be 20 again, but still... Plus, my baby making days are starting to get smaller and smaller, and the hubs still doesn't get it. I'll be at least 28 before I get to be a mom! There goes my big family. I'm really glad someone else feels the same way I do!
I'm 32 and luckily, no birthday has ever bothered me. And... I was 28 and single in Utah... WHO CARES? You gorgeous and young and active, you're having fun while you're getting older right? That is the important thing. BTW... you DO NOT have crows feet. You're gorgeous and you like like you're 21. You have nothing to worry about.
Haha 25 freaked me out a little bit because I realized I was a quarter of a century old. It's really weird when I notice what year the high school kids were born when I'm at work...but I love that quote you posted and think it is a great saying to live by. I was thinking the other day about how many cool things you've done (places you've traveled). Don't stress...you look great and have had lots of great experiences. : )
First of all... who is that person who said that you? I am going to SMACK them. Secondly, yes, every year, I feel older and older and older. It's like not that big a deal when I am like, "Okay, such and such event will happen in a few years... that's not too far away... except by then I'll be THIRTY!! AHAHAHAHAH!!" Or when I meet youngsters, I always think we are about the same age, but they're born in like 94. Yeah, not the same age.
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